Awareness…. Ummmmmm wow. Just merely 4 years ago I was in the best shape of my life. Rocking a svelte 5’9, 145 pound 39 year old body. Then….. BAM! Life happened. And by ‘life’, I mean, moving across the world, having your knees give you the finger, divorce, job changes, dating horror stories, mental illness, etc etc etc.
Now! 4 years later and I’m a much happier, but fat! 43 year old 170 pound woman. Life’s pretty good- getting married in 2 months however…. Recent photos of myself are not just unflattering but more of stills from a horror film about what a mid-life crisis aftermath can look like.
The above is a result of injuries, overeating, over drinking and mental illness. The latter is the most concerning. Mental illness- when you have anxiety and depression, but your life is something you don’t recognize and you try anything you can to avoid reality. You count on the one good photo and ignore the rest. You avoid the scale like the plague and try desperately to rationalize why your jeans don’t fit! This site will be my journey back to self acceptance and respect and might give sneaky peaks into my past.
